257 Dear S,

S you told me to move on so I'll move on. I hope my new environment will help me get closure. I am starting to breathe a little but i wodner if it is only because I am hyped by new people who take me out of my world for a while. I hope I will not have to go back again.

Meanwhile I am living this freedom, I am living it so happily. It feels so good to be free from you. I want to be free from you everyday. Or could this only be momentary bliss before i revert to my default mode?

I cannot quit counting the days since you left. I cannot tell anybody confidently that I have gotten over you. Because getting over you has become a part of my life. It doesn't hurt all that much, am i getting better or numb? I have seen new faces I want to remember but can I forget yours? What about you? Are you happy every day? What about me? Am i moving on for you or for me?

257 days and counting

These are moments too sublime
too sublime to be counting the days.