If you think 7 looks like a 2

A beetle flew in.

I sprayed the hell out of Shieldtox. The beetle landed on its back and struggled for a good 5 minutes. I grabbed a flyer and smacked it hard because its struggling was bothering my reading and i threw the damned insect out of the window.

I used to be a hardcore animal lover. Even for insects/lizards (yes, omg). Even though I know i don't look like one ( Sorry.. ) I used to flip when my cousins pour water on groups of ants, or whenever i hear about my relatives using the lizardtrap sticker to control the lizard population in their household. I thought it was cruel. Now i wish that the stickers could be the apartment's wallpapers.

I told my relatives they couldn't help being born lizards, (or whatever animals human think is ugly) and that we shouldn't kill them just because they look like jelly. On sundays i went to the library to read up on animals. I had posters over my room that had printed slogans against animal abuse, I even went to SPCA (and loved the trip) before. Absurb?

Now I hate animals. It irks me that a lizard is within 5m radius. I think pets are troublesome and money suckers. I am too occupied with complaining about how my life has been an epic failure, to even react at the news that a rabbit had been torn into half. I hate animals, I pour water over ants to see how they would panic and respond, I even hate humans, I think karma is a beautiful thing, I don't think I will ever symphatize anymore.

So it really is true that once you lose something you genuinely care about, nothing else really seems to deserve your concern at all...

That aside..

I am reluctant to fix a date for tuition with my tutee. She is so lazy she could easily own my sister. And is a problem child. Who talks back. Who refuses to do my homework. Who hates big words. "Characteristics" is a big word.

She: What does dimples translate to in Chinese?
Me: Jiu Wo
She: Why don't they call it pampers?
Me: Do you even know what pampers are?

I needed to use quite a bit of chinese to teach her. I don't know how I am ever going to teach the reproductive system chapter. What do you call a dick in Chinese? I know ovary is Luan Chao.

Till then